Cursed Blessings/Blessed Curses

My life began as most lives do, but somewhere along the line it was realized that there were things about my life that were not “normal.” I further began to realize that I had no real foundation, no actual link to the people around me, so I began searching myself, and the result of this search is what landed on paper. My only way of dealing with the lies, chaos, and abuse that filled my young existence, was to put my thoughts and feelings down on paper, knowing that if I told people what was going inside, they would not believe me. This is what happened in my head, in my life, in my world, from ages 15 to 29. This is the result of growing up surrounded by ignorance, loathing, and hatred, when all I ever wanted was love and understanding…